May 24, 2007

Thursday, May 24, 2007
Well, this year is going to be a long one. Tuesday was my first chemo. Wednesday I couldn't even get out of bed. The fatigue I have felt is impossible to explain. My arms and legs literally have had no energy. A bit more energetic today but not a whole lot. I started feeling really nauseauted last night and was not able to fall asleep until after 2. Today I have fought nausea a lot and finally gave in to it around noon. I have pills to fight it but evidently I need to take them more often or they weren't strong enough. I know they have helped....but this chemo has kicked my butt. I have a horrible lump in my throat. I swear...this lump is the worst part of it all. It is the tumor and I feel it. When I move it causes me to gag and cough. That in turn makes me feel sick. I just want this chemo to help. I can handle a little fatigure and even some nausea. I just want this shortness of breath and the lump in my neck and chest to be GONE. No idea how long that will take. =/

May 21, 2007

Monday, May 21, 2007
Well, I start chemo tomorrow morning. Every two weeks....until the end of November. I am nervous....but hopeful at the same time. I have to beat this. I want to feel better and the cure rate is really high so wish me luck all. I pray all my hair doesn't fall out but you know what? I think I'd rather live than worry about it too much.

May 16, 2007

Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Got my appointment!
FINALLY I got the call. I am going to St. Louis tomorrow for my appointment. I have to go to this appointment with this specialist before I can start treatments. Now...whether she'll be doing my treatments there or I'll be doing my treatments here I have no idea. But this is my very first step in getting better. I can hardly breathe, eat, sleep, etc. This is giving me hope. I don't know how I'll manage this trip but I'm gonna just be happy that I am getting in tomorrow.

First Blog

First of all, my name is Sandi. I was diagnosed in May with Hodgkins Lymphoma. I found out 2 weeks prior that I was pregnant. The chances of these two occuring at the same time I have learned are somewhere around 1 in 1000. I have heard from many oncologists and my high risk OB that it is something rarely seen. My OB has only had 4 patients that had cancer and were pregnant at the same time. This is after 20 years of working as a high risk OB. I have a very curable and treatable cancer. This blog will be a record of all that I go through, how I am feeling and what I am doing. I have posted a blog on myspace for awhile and will be posting all the blogs I have made on there since May then will start updating here. I hope that I get some feedback and comments. I love hearing from people. I have a family. I am 31 and married for over 11 years now. I have 3 daughters ages 10, 7 and 5. That's a little background on me. Now for my blogs. This all should keep you up to date as of everything so far.



Monday, May 14, 2007

Bad day today. Well starting last night really. I'm waiting and waiting to hear back from this doctor's office in St. Louis. They aren't rushing though and I am miserable. I'll have to make a 3 hour drive to get there when I finally get the appointment and treatment can't start until they see me. I can no longer sit up in bed without first feeling strangled then immediately going into such a violent coughing fit that I almost throw up each time. I am scared to just get up to go the bathroom. I have progressed to being this awful in just the past month. It's scary. I want to get better but know I'll only get worse until treatment starts. I am feeling very depressed today. I am tired of feeling sick. I am tired of coughing until it hurts. :(