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Thursday, August 27, 2009

My Radiation Experience and My Dad's Birthday

I have noticed from reading a lot of other people's stories of radiation that they have some sort of net like mask over their head and face to hold the head into place. I did not have this done and am pretty thankful actually as I do not think I would like it too much. It is something at least similar to this pic...but I cannot say positively because again I have no experience other than reading others stories. If you have a personal experience with it, please feel free to share. I like having the info.

I had more of a body mold done. It went from my upper shoulder area down to my waist. This thing confused me from day one. I was put onto the table for the radiation on top of this what I thought was like a mat. Then when they had me into place the thing started to tighten and form around my body. I have no idea how. Yeah I will probably learn one day but I really do not know. Maybe one of my readers does? The thing resembled white Styrofoam in the end. Mine was not blue like the ladies below. The mold was so that each day my body would be in the exact same position. They would get out my mold, put it on the table and I would lie down in it. Then they'd poke me into position quite literally. They would just push me with their fingers and line up my big black x's that I had drawn onto my chest and side.

The treatment itself lasted maybe 5 minutes. There were high pitched sounds and clicks and then it was done. There are more details that I will go into later. You see the "s" on my laptop has went out. So for every single "S" I type, I am using the onscreen keyboard and's getting annoying. haha I plan on getting a new laptop soon. Until then I wanted to post a couple pics that resemble what my radiation treatment was like. I found a good one with a body mold on the table. The machine is huge and can rotate all the way around you. I never had a single side effect that I know of. No burns, no throat issues, no blisters. I don't know why but I got by really easy throughout radiation. I am so relieved because I have heard of some bad side effects.

I also wanted to wish my dad a very happy birthday today. He's still not feeling well. I hope we get things figured out with him soon.

Monday, August 24, 2009

A Better Day

I think my day is beginning to get brighter. I was feeling so down earlier. If you all could only understand how important it is to me to be the best at what I do or at least try my very best. I can accept limits in my abilities but I have to TRY my hardest. Well missing my first day was discouraging to say the least. I have decided until the construction lightens up a bit I am just going to leave earlier. I had told the daycare Gabbi would be there at 8:30 a.m. and I guess I worry about her getting there too early...but I have to account for possible time lost due to construction. Hopefully they will be ok with this. I think they will.

Anyway after I wrote my last blog post I got a couple of great e-mails. One of them was from They had written me before about my story which I found wonderful. They wanted to tell me they had added a link to my blog on their site. Their site they said gets about 800,000 hits a month. All I could do was just gasp. Wow. This is wonderful and surely will increase traffic here and help to tell our story.

I was asked in a comment recently why I did not have Gabriella in my Entrecard ad. (For those who know what that is) I have a very good answer for that. I was only a few weeks pregnant when I started this blog. It was about me being pregnant with cancer. My blog still tells that story but it goes beyond it. I kept the same basic ad throughout my use of Entrecard because I want everyone to still recognize my blog from that site. I could update it at some point though. Gabriella is a cutie pie for sure and now our story is about her growing up and me being in remission.

I have a post that I have been thinking about writing. I don't think I have written much about my experience with my radiation treatments. I have noticed they are different for everyone so I will be sure to post my full experience with that soon.

One of Those Days

I had a bad morning. Refer to my Nothing Off Limits blog for details. I don't want to go into it again. I am bummed and tired. I need to cheer up though. I have this overwhelming feeling of sadness. I think we all have those days. You know the basic reason you're bummed but there is not a real definite reason as to what is making me feel so blue. I think it is just a whole lot of stress in my life that sort of boils over. Some days I need to just get it all out. Today is one of those days. The stress tries to get to me and it on occasion manages to succeed. You know I read something once that people naturally felt more sad on rainy or gloomy days. I am glad it is sunny outside today!