Wednesday, January 14, 2009
The Anxiety Has Officially Set In!
Well I realized something today. I am doing it again. It is now January 14th. My appointment is January 22nd. I am now starting to feel every symptom in the book, or at least questioning whether or not I am. I guess the nightmares will probably start again too. I do this every single time yet I don't think about it at first. I realize I am doing it after I have worried myself to death. I always get anxious before my follow ups. The week prior is always the worst. I can tell it gets to my hubby too. I can see it in his eyes. He sort of admitted it to me last night when I flat out asked him if he was getting the jitters yet. He looked at me in such a guilty way that I laughed. Yeah I need prayers, thoughts and words of support right about now! I had a nightmare a couple of appointments ago that the doc came in, took my hubby to another room and told HIM my cancer came back. That one was odd. I haven't had any bad dreams yet. I was warned before I ever finished treatment for my cancer that this would happen. I do take some comfort in that!!