Tuesday, February 10, 2009
The New Me
I realize after getting so sick and going through everything I went through I really am a different person. I have mentioned before being stronger which is very true. I know I can handle more than I used to think I could. I think I matured though. I matured a lot and really changed the way I look at life. Not everything is handed to you on a silver platter. Things don't always go just the way you set for them to go. You adjust. You adapt to what life throws your way and hopefully when you look back on it all you can be thankful for the lessons you've learned. Am I thankful I had cancer? No. I wouldn't say thankful for it. I would rather have not had to deal with all that, especially for my family's sake but I am thankful for everything I have learned and the person I have become. I'm closer to my husband than ever before. I don't take a single day for granted. I don't take any person for granted. I love more than I ever did in general. I appreciate my own life and honestly am just thankful for the simple things too. Just breathing is a gift. Life gets hard sometimes and still I have days where I'd rather just throw in the towel. Those are fleeting thoughts. They come and they go. I realize they are normal. You have to pick yourself up, dust yourself off and continue on in this journey we call life.