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Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Two Days Until Christmas and More Thoughts on After Effects

Are you ready yet? I am doing ok I think. I need to wrap some stuff. Gabriella has caught the virus. So far it doesn't seem like she has a tummy ache though. Just other unpleasant things and a low grade temp. I hope it goes away for Christmas! This virus is just awful. I don't want my baby girl throwing up for Christmas.

I spent the day at the mall yesterday and shopping with the hubby. We had a really good day and stopped for lunch too. I really enjoy that time we get together.

I mentioned after effects of chemo. I never truly have felt 100% the same. I had all that pressure in my neck when the tumor was there. I felt in on occasion even during chemo though never as bad. After chemo I still feel it sometimes but doc says I am cancer free. It causes paranoia. I am told numbness and tingling in the fingers and toes is an after effect which is good honestly since I DO get that. I got that bad during chemo combined with an awful metalic taste in my mouth. I brushed my teeth probably 10 times a day during chemo. Literally, no joke. I am suffering from back pain but it's different than my usual pain. This is specifically targeted to my upper left shoulder blade. It's bad too. I can't lean my head all the way back. It reminds me WAY too much of when I was at my sickest I would cough violently and it sent stabbing pains into my left shoulder. The pains were so bad it honestly felt like someone took a knife to my shoulder. I was terrified to cough. It made me throw up too. Luckily now at least medicine helps the pain! And it's not that bad either. There are just many things and some you can say is a result of cancer or chemo. Some are not. You just never know for sure. Kind of like when I was sick. I had nausea. How much was attributed to cancer, chemo or the baby? I never knew for sure. The terrible reflux could have been made worse by the tumor. My treatments as well could have made it worse. I hated that I didn't really know. Either way I am better now with just a bit of shoulder pain. I think I can handle it.


Sandee said...

Sorry the little one is sick. I hope she gets better quickly.

Excellent on spending the day with hubby yesterday. I like to do that too.

I'm glad you are much better now. Cancer is an ugly thing for sure.

Have a terrific day. Big hug. :)

Paul Eilers said...

A great Christmas present would be for you to fully and completely recover from all of this.

Merry Christmas.

Mizé said...

I´d like to wish you and your family a Merry Christmas!
Lots of Peace, Health and Happiness.

Posh Totty said...

Merry Christmas Xx

Anonymous said...

I'm glad you pulled through, it never easy. I salute your determination.
I think it's important to have faith and keep praying.

Darkness will soon be dear

Anonymous said...

Merry Christmas!

Anonymous said...

wow beautiful story from an even more beautiful woman...good luck with everything...