Saturday, January 16, 2010

Winding Down and a Holiday Party

It's almost that time. Classes start on Monday. It's everything I have been working for since 2005. It's everything that I put on hold while I was sick. This is it! I will begin nursing classes and I am ready. I am nervous. I am scared, but I have learned this is probably a wise feeling. I haven't met a nursing student yet who didn't have a mild breakdown, or two (or three). So I am prepared.

I hated having to take a break for so long but there was no way I could do anything in 2007. I had been sick for quite some time without knowing what was wrong. I took a yoga class in 2005 and 2006 and wondered why some positions were so hard to twist my neck into. Literally it would cut off my air supply. I would choke. I had to tell the teacher there were just some positions I couldn't do. Of course we blamed it on thyroid at that time.

By 2007 I was honestly barely standing. I was so tired and weak. I could hardly breathe through the panting and wheezing. Then I was bedridden, for a long time. I finished up my classes though in 2007. The only thing I didn't do was take my Algebra final. I had pushed through it all but knew I couldn't study for or make it through that test. I had been told I most likely had Hodgkin's Lymphoma but they were still waiting for the official diagnosis. I had barely known for 2 weeks I was pregnant. My life was a whirlwind. So my teacher let me just keep the A I had in the class without taking the final. I'll never forget it and wish I could tell her now what that meant to me.

I didn't go back to school until the summer of 2009. I had been accepted into the Nursing College and needed a few more prereqs. They told me when I started my course load in the fall they thought it was too much. I told them I had to do it. I did! Now everything I have worked for is here. I got my books. I worked it all out it seems at this point. So I could use prayers and some good luck!

5 comments:

Crysm said...

My prayers are with you. I have several friends in nursing school (I would love to go myself... Maybe some day) and I've seen how hard it is. I completely admire you for sticking with it and reaching for your dreams especially after everything you have been through.

Mee2 said...

Good luck! I know you can do it! You have the compassion and knowledge it takes to be a great nurse. I love reading your blog and getting the updates. You help keep me motivated on my journey towards nursing school.

maryanne @ mama smiles said...

You have our prayers! I am so impressed that you have been able to keep up with your classes through everything that has been going on. And hooray for that algebra teacher having the kindness (and common sense) to let you keep the A in that class without making you take the final!

Good luck, and I look forward to reading about your journey through nursing school!

Matthew said...

going back to class is always rough. i remember always dreading it.

Kloggers/Polly said...

Good Luck! I am sure you will be fine. You have gone through so much that you must think of this as being your time - make the most of every minute of it but above everything enjoy it.