A Short Scare and a Goofy Baby Girl

Baby girl. You know I write that and she very much IS my baby girl. She still looks like a baby, but technically I don't think she is. Well she'll be two on November 17th. That's the miracle baby's second birthday! She will have to get used to always being my baby girl!

Anyway back to the point of this post. She really is getting big. She seems so smart to me. She has a memory that I don't even think I have! She remembers everything and words you tell her once. She'll remember it later. Obviously only if she wants to but like bananas. I told her what they were once while feeding her one. Today while strolling through the grocery store Gabbi spotted the bananas and started yelling "Nana! Yummy!!! Nana! Yuuummmy?" So of course I bought some.

We get out to the car and I decided to give her a few bites and have a few myself. So she took a few bites and I kept reminding her to chew. She is so bad about wanting to just swallow. Of course she did and began to gag. I of course got nervous and had to pat her on the back a couple of times. It wasn't really serious just coughing for about 4 seconds. That's enough to make any mom pause and worry. Well she coughed it up and immediately, literally no breath in between motioned for the banana and screamed "Nana!!! YUMMY!!!"

"Sigh". Mom panics.....baby wants more banana. Typical.

What Would YOU Do?

I wrote yesterday about Gabbi's milk allergy and the stolen cookie. Well last night around supper time she had diarrhea. Oh yeah poop talk! Well look away if you don't like it. haha I didn't know if I should feel that could be from the cookie she had eaten early that morning. Then it happened again and again. It was not large quantities but enough to make her sore, poor thing. She has been getting over a cold and did run a slight fever on Saturday but it disappeared fast. So I was questioning this huge coincidence. Was it the milk? Or did she not have enough for it to be even from the milk? It was one vanilla wafer. Was it the end of a virus?

Well the doc just called and said her allergy test results came back normal for everything! So now I want to believe it could be over but this whole diarrhea thing has me very uncertain. I think what I'll do is wait and make sure that whole episode has passed. She hasn't had any since about 3 a.m. So I will wait and then start introducing new foods with a bit of milk in it. I am nervous about it though. I really am regardless of the test. She had no vomiting but sheesh. Why can't we just get a break? haha

Daycare and A Mistake I've Been Waiting For

It is kind of sad when you expect a mistake to be made so you try extra hard to prevent it. You warn all those involved, stress the importance and yet it still happens. For those who are not aware Gabbi has had a milk allergy pretty much all her life. Unfortunately for her it took us 4 months of her life to really figure it out. By then she would profusely vomit anything that had milk in it. Depending on the quantity of milk she'd throw up more or less, followed by other unsightly reactions.

The doctor ordered an allergy test which was in itself horrible. Gabbi had a blood test for it on Friday and I am anxiously awaiting the results. The doc said kids can outgrow milk allergies (not to be confused with lactose intolerance).

Anyway back to my point. Today at daycare Gabbi stole another kid's cookie. Yes just as I feared even though I stressed to them there that she would absolutely steal another kid's food and that she could get very ill from anything that even has milk in it, she still managed to get a kid's cookie into her mouth. She wasn't about to give it up either and they could not get it out of her mouth.

Here's the kicker. Since of course we have given her no milk in ages we have no idea if she has outgrown the allergy or not. We are waiting on the results of the test that I am now very happy to have done. This cookie was eaten at around 9:45 a.m. and she is fine. Not so much as a tummy ache. I am thinking this could be a good sign. I would love to be able to introduce some new foods to her. It would make her life and mine so much easier!

My Radiation Experience and My Dad's Birthday

I have noticed from reading a lot of other people's stories of radiation that they have some sort of net like mask over their head and face to hold the head into place. I did not have this done and am pretty thankful actually as I do not think I would like it too much. It is something at least similar to this pic...but I cannot say positively because again I have no experience other than reading others stories. If you have a personal experience with it, please feel free to share. I like having the info.

I had more of a body mold done. It went from my upper shoulder area down to my waist. This thing confused me from day one. I was put onto the table for the radiation on top of this what I thought was like a mat. Then when they had me into place the thing started to tighten and form around my body. I have no idea how. Yeah I will probably learn one day but I really do not know. Maybe one of my readers does? The thing resembled white Styrofoam in the end. Mine was not blue like the ladies below. The mold was so that each day my body would be in the exact same position. They would get out my mold, put it on the table and I would lie down in it. Then they'd poke me into position quite literally. They would just push me with their fingers and line up my big black x's that I had drawn onto my chest and side.


The treatment itself lasted maybe 5 minutes. There were high pitched sounds and clicks and then it was done. There are more details that I will go into later. You see the "s" on my laptop has went out. So for every single "S" I type, I am using the onscreen keyboard and well...it's getting annoying. haha I plan on getting a new laptop soon. Until then I wanted to post a couple pics that resemble what my radiation treatment was like. I found a good one with a body mold on the table. The machine is huge and can rotate all the way around you. I never had a single side effect that I know of. No burns, no throat issues, no blisters. I don't know why but I got by really easy throughout radiation. I am so relieved because I have heard of some bad side effects.



I also wanted to wish my dad a very happy birthday today. He's still not feeling well. I hope we get things figured out with him soon.

A Better Day

I think my day is beginning to get brighter. I was feeling so down earlier. If you all could only understand how important it is to me to be the best at what I do or at least try my very best. I can accept limits in my abilities but I have to TRY my hardest. Well missing my first day was discouraging to say the least. I have decided until the construction lightens up a bit I am just going to leave earlier. I had told the daycare Gabbi would be there at 8:30 a.m. and I guess I worry about her getting there too early...but I have to account for possible time lost due to construction. Hopefully they will be ok with this. I think they will.

Anyway after I wrote my last blog post I got a couple of great e-mails. One of them was from Parents.com. They had written me before about my story which I found wonderful. They wanted to tell me they had added a link to my blog on their site. Their site they said gets about 800,000 hits a month. All I could do was just gasp. Wow. This is wonderful and surely will increase traffic here and help to tell our story.

I was asked in a comment recently why I did not have Gabriella in my Entrecard ad. (For those who know what that is) I have a very good answer for that. I was only a few weeks pregnant when I started this blog. It was about me being pregnant with cancer. My blog still tells that story but it goes beyond it. I kept the same basic ad throughout my use of Entrecard because I want everyone to still recognize my blog from that site. I could update it at some point though. Gabriella is a cutie pie for sure and now our story is about her growing up and me being in remission.

I have a post that I have been thinking about writing. I don't think I have written much about my experience with my radiation treatments. I have noticed they are different for everyone so I will be sure to post my full experience with that soon.