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Monday, January 5, 2009

Follow Up Getting Closer!

Anyone who has followed my blog for any significant period of time knows how stressed and paranoid I get around follow up time. This time is no exception. I am not in super paranoid mode yet. That will occur about one week prior to the appointment. I think my neck and shoulder tension causes things to swell up and then of course since I already have scar tissue in my chest it further aggravates things in there, making me feel pressure similar to when I had the tumor. The reason I believe this is because it always comes when I am feeling shoulder pain or having a tension headache. If I get a good shoulder rub it helps both problems. So I think maybe I should see a chiropractor. I am not sure because I have never seen one before. I imagine it would help though.

Issues like this can sure make a girl feel old. Then again it's the only real issue I have. I feel great otherwise. I was in the best shape of my life before I got sick. I had gone back to college. I was in a fitness class working out 5 days a week and doing a yoga class 2 or 3 days a week. I think it was two, but I can't remember for sure. Yoga was hard though in some ways. There were a couple of moves I couldn't do. I had thought it was the thyroid pressure preventing it but of course we now know it was the huge tumor choking me to death when I tried putting my legs up and over my head. haha I am so glad to have a reason! I don't feel lazy or like I just couldn't do it anymore. It's not a sad feeling at all. Once you find out you finally feel validated! You feel like finally everyone will understand you do have a problem and then not look at you like you're crazy anymore. It was a mixed feeling because of course I had cancer...which is not good news. At the same time all the symptoms I had for years were finally explained and it was so good that all the complaining I had done to my husband and family for years had an explanation.

My follow up is actually going to be fairly exciting for one reason. We are taking a vacation to see my hubby's parents that week. We are heading straight out from my appointment. I am so excited. I am actually really excited to see my doc too. I love that whole office and they love us. We are treated like family there. That's just how a place like that should be, I think. We just got a new mini van with a DVD player in it too. So this trip will be great for the kids too!


Sandee said...

I like the idea of the trip right after the appointment. What a great idea.

Sending you the greatest karma ever. Big hug. :)

Janet Gardner said...

I think the trip sounds like a great time for you and your family and helps keep you upbeat. I have posted an award for you on my blog.
Take Care,
Janet :)

The Frugal Angel-Guided Psychic said...

I'll keep you and your family in my heart and in my prayers for your appointment and for the trip (children on a trip always need prayers lol).